Do Not Read This Post - Nothing Good Can Come From It (WTMI)

This is a post that comes from a time when i can't sleep.  i have been kicking around the idea of doing this type of post for a couple of weeks now.   Probably because i don't post enough as it is (sarcasm).  This will fall apart in a hurry (as i don't tend to have a constant grasp of what i'm going to say).  i know that in the past i have called people like Ke$ha hack lyrical writers - now i get to prove i'm much, much worse.  i have no clue how to write music.  This is a one 5 or so minute session with only 1 slight edit.  The spacing on Blogger is kind of messed up. i think this is the first and last one of these i'll do here.

So, just pretend you never saw it, OK?  Turn back now, you cannot "unread" what you might see...  you have been warned.

Katie (My Alternate Reality)

Going back in time in my mind
For the 100 thousandth time
Reminiscing on all the love that can never be
That's when i think back to you, you and me

So many words i wished i would have said
But i knew you didn't want to hear them anyway
You made it perfectly clear, clear to me
There was no future with you
But maybe, maybe

In my alternate reality
i would like to think, at least inside my mind
There's still a place the sun can shine
Where we are still together for infinity
Katie
In my alternate reality, in my alternate reality

I spent so much time trying to get you off my mind
But that is easier said than done
I know, i know for you i was never going to be the one
Maybe there's a place somewhere
Where it would turn out for me, out for me
Where you could have been my destiny

On the day you said goodbye
I tried my hardest not to cry
At least not on the outside
I tried to keep you for at least a little while
But i knew you were leaving

In my alternate reality

i would like to think, at least inside my mind

There's still a place the sun can shine

Where we are still together for infinity

Katie

In my alternate reality, in my alternate reality

Katie, you'd still be here with me

Living every dream (every dream)

In my alternate reality

Background (Way Too Much Information)

Katie is a real person (the first person i had a date with - sorry no Heath Blizzards).  She was one of those people who just screamed "marriage material", but she made it clear that she had no interest in me to fill that role.  i guess i kind of had a crush on her - we hung out together in the TV room - sexy, no?  i guess it's fitting since i started writing this type of drivel starting with that summer (and loosely about her).  For the record - i hate sun (it is just a commonly used metaphor).

3 years later it really accelerated when i fell hard (really, really hard) for Ms. Wrong - what was i thinking, falling for a Calivermin.  "Writing" has been a little off and on since then (mostly off - it's hard to write about feelings you don't actually have) - you think i would have gotten better.  Nope, if anything i've gotten worse.  i have no concept of form or cohesion - all i usually have is a title or a decent line or two.  i used this as a way to deal with unfamiliar feelings and emotions. Sometimes i'll see a movie or hear a song that will spark brief "writing" outbursts.   Ok, so i have written over 900 of this kind of really bad thing since i started.  As Joseph Konrad would say (or was it Kurtz), The Horror! The Horror!